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blah!!!! but its a really good way to get out of the house!
at least for 5 days i wont have to even think about my mom or step dad.
I LOVE IT! not that i don't love them, they are just on my last nerve all the time....

I can't wait to be here over break!......


Carlsbad beach! Hopefully I'll go there, but I'll probably go to someplace like San Diego or Redondo Beach. Any of them are good!! I'm just sooooo excited to get away from home for 3 weeks and do nothing but relax!

well...today im upset so i think its fine to finally talk about this part of my life.
just about 4 years ago, my mom and dad got a divorce which is a good thing, as i've said before, but now i'll say why.

January 2005, was a horrible day. My dad had been an alcoholic for a long time now and I guess he did drugs too. I never knew that until after he was gone though. anyways, one day after my gymnastics practice, he picked me up and drove me home. I could tell it was one of those days that he wasn't all there and that he was really angry. So once we got home I decided to go straight to my room. a little while later i heard him and my mom arguing like they had hundreds of times before, but it started getting worse than normal. so i went into my sister's room with her and we tried to wait it out. but then we heard my mom scream. so my sister and i ran into their bedroom and...well long story short.
he ended up throwing me through a doorway and my sister ended up with a concussion and all of us bruised.
so he went crazy and I've never seen him since. I have a huge hate for him...but its getting smaller over time. and i've decided that when i move to california in a year, I'm going to try and show him what a wonderful person I've become in spite of his monstrous actions.

High school does that to ya! I have 4 finals and 3 projects to complete and study for in the next 2 weeks...thats not including any homework i might get along the way....haaa.

not only is school stressful, but fathers are too. my parents are divorced (good).but my real dad...i really dont want to talk to much and he always nags at me and acts like he's a good person. He's not!! It's like he thinks I'm and idiot! and when i actually do talk to him...he says oh wow. i forgot what you looked like....how pathetic. He cant even remember what his own daughter looks like. and he says he cares! HA!

Sorry it took a couple days for me to get back. I've been busy. Like I said, I'm still in school. But that's beside the point.
I told you before that I'd be starting my story of when everything changed. Ya I know it sounds all dramatic, but it's true. I'm not here to just make up stories, this is my life.
Since I was 8 years old, I had been doing gymnastics. I loved it and lived for it. It was the best part of my life. The only thing I didn't like was that I didn't have time to do anything else. Ever. So one day in the middle of a hot summer, I was waking up at 7 to get ready for my morning practice and I decided I wanted to take a day off for once. So I begged my mom to let me go to the public pool with my sister that day instead. At this time she was watching a child of a friend of her's. She reluctantly agreed to my pleading and she drove my sister and I to the pool. She said we could stay for a couple hours then she would be back here to pick us up. After a few hours I was ready to go and i couldn't get a hold of my mom. So we called our next door neighbor and she told us that our mom was very busy and she couldn't come pick us up and that she would instead. So when she got there she told us something bad had happened, but she wouldn't tell us exactly what it was. So when we pulled down our street I could see all police cars and the ambulance and the fire truck. Being 10 years old, that can be a pretty scary sight. So I was freaking out trying to guess what had happened. I was told that my mom was fine...but the child wasn't.
She had fallen into our pool. I'm sure you can guess the rest of the details, but after that my mother was blamed. She couldn't walk, eat, or talk for weeks. She would just sit in bed. I've been having to deal with court and crap like that for years now and things just kept getting worse.
I'm not going to give any more details away, but I'll let your logic figure it out.
But really. That's the day everything change. Depressed mother, sad and scared children and years and years of court. I hope and pray all the time that children won't have to face what I did at such a young age. I know that there are horrific things in the world, but I hope that children don't have to face them.

So that's part one of my life story...ha.
On a lighter note...school's almost out! I'm really excited for that :)

Okay, I really like to read. My friends have been giving me good books to read lately. So that explains what my user name stands for. They're the first letters of the names of characters in a new-found series I've just read. Love it. (Max, Fang, Angel, Gazzy, Iggy, and Nudge).
I have a lot to tell! I can be really interesting so just stay with me and follow along and you'll start to see the bigger picture soon!.

Lets start with my home. Older sister is moved out and my parents are divorced(good), but my mom is dating someone else(not good). I'll get into the good and not good some other time. I love my sister to pieces, but we have had our rough spots. My mom and I don't really get along anymore and her boyfriend and I, lets just say there are so many emotions there I cant list them all right now.
More basics. I have my cat and I love her to pieces. I'm a huge animal lover. I have my couple close friends that mean the world and more to me and I hope that I never lose them.( I know, everything sounds great now, just wait).
Music is something else thats really important to me. I love to listen to music. I believe that music can save a life.
I did competitive gymnastics for 7 years. Loved it, but it got to be too much for me so it had to end. Sometime I almost wish I didn't leave. Oh, and another little fact, I love flowers. I think they're some of the most beautiful creations.
  (lilies are my favorite)



Well, that's it for today, but tomorrow I'll get in to the first day that my life really started to change.